In Memoriam - Mari

Silver wired windows riddle the webbing
Of some crafty fiend above me, sinking,
On his furled bedmate drinking, drinking;
The crawling sea beneath me is ebbing.

You could hear the waking birds chirrup
To the bustling hefty storm just outside,
Jolting their nests where they reside
As if to be asking, "What's all the stir up?"

Now most of the curling clouds are gone,
And Heaven's spears gave Earth its blood;
Low on the ears, easing up around dawn,
The very last bolt reverberates to a thud...

My wandering memories so often dwell,
Firmly grasping to the Stave of Hope,
Though now she's not within my scope,
I can never endure the hardest farewell.

Vapid are the halls without a sound,
Vapid now as to fill a vagrant soul,
And through that dusty fixture's bowl
The twitchy light eyeballing the ground.

And a one-one, two, one-one, two...
Rhythm of knocking past wooden bars
Fades down the line of aged boudoirs;
Sad drones within on walls to lean to.

Peering, folded, distantly grotesque,
Knowing not what, I near closer to find,
Startling thoughts do shake the mind;
Leery me, it's just a letter on the desk:

       "Dearie, dearest, my dear Marī,

Forgive what seemed in me my grief
To let be, let go this, my heart's relief.
Quell! Quell! ’Tis tough to shake thee;
Love's a maniac slinging ecstasy.

Departing for now,
..."

Morning gave way to the noon's gilding rays,
Noon gave way to the evening's softer glows;
Now 6 p.m. before the day comes to a close,
I am two steps beyond tomorrow's gateways.

Forsaken things, pages of thoughts and conundrums
Lay in ruin throughout the evening sky-lighted hall,
Gazing from above while I try to resolve them all,
Weightily stooped over a stepstool with raw thumbs:

My life's a library thrown upon the floor,
Or so it seems, for I had been a biblioclast
(Slayer of books) seeing I had surpassed,
Knowing of certain things I wish to ignore.

Inside her room with quaint relics, mulling now,
I recall her silken coffee tresses long lost scent.
O' damn it all, O' damn it all, it's went! It's went!
Just as I must go, for I've fulfilled my last vow.