Hello! 
This journal does not contain any necessary/important information about myself or my art. It's just a personal opinion of mine. You can ignore this.
Also, before I start, this journal is not
not
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and was NEVER intended to be a personal attack towards ANYONE.
There's NO NEED to comment with "Is this about me?" because NO, it is not. If it was directed towards one person I have a problem with I wouldn't have posted this in public. This is just some rant about something that has caught my attention on dA.
Also, this is an opinion. Not facts. If you disagree feel free to leave a comment with your opinion, I will read it.
Sooo lately, on dA, I've noticed that a lot of people, who claimed to be straight at first, "turn" bi/pansexual or in some cases, gay. This is not something new, I know this has been going on for what seems like forever. That isn't even that much of an issue, I mean, if they are like that, well I support people coming out of the closet either way.
But what DOES bother me is that when it comes to orientations, people on here just see real life crushes and online crushes as the same thing. "IT'S ALL LOVEEE" so we throw it all on one pile. Bam.
And actually... No, it's not the same thing. At all.
When you fall for someone in real life, there's a lot of things playing a role. Looks don't matter they say, but of course, they DO play a role (though this doesn't mean we always fall for the pretty ones of course, when I first saw my current crush I didn't even find her that pretty at all) enfin, the personality of course also plays a role, but also things like smells and hormones play a role. It's a whole bunch of things actually. And whether you like guys, girls or both depends on what kind of smells, looks, etc... you are attracted by.
On the Internet on the other hand... Well it's a whole different game there, since it's an unnatural environment things don't go the same way. Of course things like scents don't matter at all, and it's perfectly possible to long for someone even without having seen a single picture of them, so in quite a lot of cases looks don't matter either. All that's left is the personality, the way of typing, etcetera. So we judge on that and that only. Of course the person can tell us their gender but if they want to, it is perfectly possible to pretend you're someone of the other gender. And even if you know the gender, it doesn't matter that much if you like the way they act. Thus, it is possible to fall in love with someone of a gender you would not be attracted to in real life.
And this leads to people "turning" bisexual, even when they are straight in the offline world. But is that actually a problem? No, of course not. This IS the Internet after all, so if someone falls for both genders on the Internet, well they can call themselves bisexual on the Internet because on here it doesn't matter who they fall for in real life. It only becomes complicated when they don't know the difference between online and real life orientations and think they're all the exact same thing and their hormones start to act up all of a sudden and aah emotions WHO AM I WHAT AM I???
Well, at the age of 13-14 until 15-16 (in some cases earlier or later) you go through a rush of changes, emotions, doubts and problems. That's normal. In this period people often start to search for their true identity: who am I, what is my purpose on here, who am I to the rest of the world. They want to know and define anything about themselves, and this also includes orientations.
Problem is that at 13 or so it's hard to be sure about your orientation. In fact, it's perfectly possible that you have been perfectly straight up until then and then all of a sudden you get a crush on the same gender. That could be a single-time crush, it could be possible that you are only attracted to that gender from that moment on, and you could be liking both genders. You could also be attracted to that gender for a while, then switch back to the original thing: ANYTHING is possible. You just don't know yet. So if that's the issue you're having... why are you trying to define yourself already? Just wait and in the end you'll know. You might be impatient but believe me, if you know anything and anything about yourself at 14 then that's a very sad thing actually, because you're simply not supposed to know anything yet. You could just stay in the "unsure" area for a while, maybe even some years. What's wrong with that? It's better than constantly switching around orientations because you wanna define yourself so badly, but you're forced to change it every time because your hormones keep acting up.
I don't even really know why I wrote this but it's just something that has been lingering on my mind for a long time so I decided to write it down, nah. Feel free to tell me your opinion I suppose, or ignore it completely if tl;dr
... And then Vana overfloofed.
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