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yeah, you read right -_- its a few days i feel like this. i just... i'm just a patetic idiot and liar... i cant describe me better than this. did you ever feel like you are nothing in the world? that your existence means NOTHING? its what i feel pratically every day. every fucking day. i have no friends, the only thing i can do its write and drawing... and know about greek mythology. i'm not useful.
i really would like to disappear forever and never come back. seriously. i thought about suicide... but i just shocked and thought it was stupid and anyway i have not the courage to do it...
people keep saying i'm awesome and a good friend. i odnt think so, there is no reason to tell that i'm awesome. neither an half reason.
somethimes i want just to cry, but i'm really proud and there are always people around im my house. you dont know when someone could come in and see you like that. result? i keep everything in me, and everyday i feel like i have a fucking weight on my heart... i dont know how to explain it... i have no one to talk with and this contributes. i couldnt tell this to my mom, to my father or my sister. i cant even stand them... i dont really know what to say, there is nothing much to tell... just this... i think i pretty wanted to vent?
it doesnt help that i have problems with my back since a year and the pain doesnt go away and doctors say i have nothing, i did x-rays and no one can find things... the fuck, i have pain and in truth i have nothing and that so stupid and pathetic i cant even stand this... i want to dissapear... just that... so no more problems...
i really would like to disappear forever and never come back. seriously. i thought about suicide... but i just shocked and thought it was stupid and anyway i have not the courage to do it...
people keep saying i'm awesome and a good friend. i odnt think so, there is no reason to tell that i'm awesome. neither an half reason.
somethimes i want just to cry, but i'm really proud and there are always people around im my house. you dont know when someone could come in and see you like that. result? i keep everything in me, and everyday i feel like i have a fucking weight on my heart... i dont know how to explain it... i have no one to talk with and this contributes. i couldnt tell this to my mom, to my father or my sister. i cant even stand them... i dont really know what to say, there is nothing much to tell... just this... i think i pretty wanted to vent?
it doesnt help that i have problems with my back since a year and the pain doesnt go away and doctors say i have nothing, i did x-rays and no one can find things... the fuck, i have pain and in truth i have nothing and that so stupid and pathetic i cant even stand this... i want to dissapear... just that... so no more problems...
New Account Soon
I think this account has made its course. I've changed since I created it, I improved. So today I'll make a new account. I will give the name only to some people, though, and only if asked
About the hiatus and stuff
Yes, as you see I am on a sort of hiatus
List of the things I must do
GUYS. this is psa. I have no time to draw these days. School and life in general are becoming harder as time passes.
Quite reminder that dA isn't my real life, thus is not as important.
This being said, I won't post much drawings in this period, and if they will be posted, they will be personal/gifts etc. Not the adoptables.
Regarding them, by the way: I have bought them in a way or another. So I'll use them when I want. If you aren't happy about it tell me, and you'll get it back.
If you're not bothered by it, thank you. Anyway, I'll more or less come back on Summe
Hi guys
hi? how are you guys? I am sorry for the inactivity, but life is in the way :(
quite reminder that if you want to talk I am on tumblr (waywardbisexualsonofposeidon) and if we are friends you can ask for my e-mail and also for phone number if you have whatsapp
whoa
I stayed away a lot. And.. it has changed. It reminds me of last time dA changed LOL
How're you guys? I'm so busy with school and life *sigh* School is hard this year and will be harder next one. And hat about you?
I should really post some art. I have one big drawing I plan to finish when i get time, a little one i have to finhs and some others. But yeah, will have to ait for a moment of peace to do that!
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Even though you may feel that your friends and family aren't supporting you, I'm glad you have the deviantArt community to help you. Looking through previous comments, I see that you're trying your best to see the positive things in life. Keep pushing through! I can't relate to your problems, but I can sympathise.
'People keep saying I'm awesome and a good friend. I don't think so, there is no reason to tell that I'm awesome.'
Probably half of the comments on this journal is from people watching and supporting you. You may not think that you're worth anything, but some people do. You say you write and draw, there are people who appreciate these works and think you're amazing! Don't ever feel like you're not useful, because you are
You know... if you have a negative attitude to everything, everything will always seem bad. If you have a positive attitude, things will seem great! I don't know about the pain in your back, but you can fix your friend problem. Many people here who support you, you can open up to them and have friends Just try and stay positive! Hope you push through this!
'People keep saying I'm awesome and a good friend. I don't think so, there is no reason to tell that I'm awesome.'
Probably half of the comments on this journal is from people watching and supporting you. You may not think that you're worth anything, but some people do. You say you write and draw, there are people who appreciate these works and think you're amazing! Don't ever feel like you're not useful, because you are
You know... if you have a negative attitude to everything, everything will always seem bad. If you have a positive attitude, things will seem great! I don't know about the pain in your back, but you can fix your friend problem. Many people here who support you, you can open up to them and have friends Just try and stay positive! Hope you push through this!