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the back of your head against my washed pillowcase

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February 5, 2013

the back of your head against my washed pillowcase by ~ChloroformBoy

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ChloroformBoy

Published: Nov 12, 2012

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Literature Text

I find it
disconcerting
that
you are the King
of my own Head
& that I am
subjugated
by my own
temptation

My bones, your
welcome mats,
cushioned
to your insatiable
satisfaction

--

I find this
discomforting,
your constant
rebirths in my
libido, despite
three years of
silent therapy,
false recovery
& worshipping
the wrong gods

you are the best muse
for struggling artists
everywhere & worst
case of the bubonic plague
since the bubonic plague

--

I find you
disenchanted
in the middle
of any where,
peeling flesh,
lulling sullen
sirensongs at
3AM

I shot a flock
of phoenixes
& ate Adam's
poison apple
yet
I remain ignor
ant and ignor
ed by you

--

I find Nothing-
decontaminate
your stovepipe
& leave me be.

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NuclearRevolution

Feb 24, 2013

Somehow his is like my favorite poetry ever, and I don't understand a word of it. But I feel like at the same time I get what every feeling laced in the verses. Like reading some random language and persuading yourself that you pretty much know what it says.

You don't.

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