Stay With Me Chapter 14

Chapter 14 Heart Future
<NERU POV>

"Okay, y'all are free to come in now." I hear a door open and the click of boots. Len and I both look up. Our friends walk in and Gakupo, Luka and Teto are taken aback by Len and the me on the cot's appearance.

"What are you guys doing here." Len asks with a mad tone in his voice. He isn't very happy to be around people at the moment.

"We came to pick you up and say some sad words to Neru, she is our friend to you know." Luka says with her usual grim voice. She is never one to give kind news kindly, especially when she is around Gakupo, stupid perverted samurai.

"Len, you really should be doing other stuff than mourning. You will be a wreck on Monday for school. And Kaito here planned a surprise concert." Miku elbows Kaito. "Isn't that right Kaito?" she finishes with clenched teeth.

Kaito sweat droppd. That jerk, can't he see that Len is in no mood to sing? Let alone be out in public? I glance over to Len and notice he has acquired faint flames around the edges of his body.

"What. Did. You. Plan. Kaito?" He looks up, his eyes replaced by flames and he looks about ready to snap Kaito's back in half.

Kaito starts to shrink to the ground as he replies. "Um...You only have to sing one song!"

"It'll be the saddest damn song all you bastards have ever heard." Len says quietly as he sulks out of the room.

Everybody even me sweat dropped.

"Um. How bout we all say hi one by one so Neru isn't overwhelmed by us?" Everybody nods in agreement. I decide I didn't want to hear everybody's sappy prayers to me. That crap does not seem interesting. So I walk out to go find Len.

I walked down a couple hallways and started to realize. If I am in a coma, but walking around freely, why am I not seeing the other comatose patients? I gave up looking for my blonde shota and I walk in and out of a couple rooms, looking for others like me. After awhile I stop and look at one of the over head signs.

"How did I end up in the pediatric section?" I say to the sign over head. I look around, but I forgot the way back. Instead I look for an elevator.

*I hope there is a map near the elevator.* I think to myself as I run around the hospital like a mad woman. I finally find one. I was nearly out of breath and wheezing.

"That's weird, I don't think I have wheezed since I ran the 500 meter dash  at that field day in that Texan school." I whisper to myself as I sit down on a red cherry wood bench. As soon as I have my breath and stopped wheezing I go over and press-try to press the down arrow.

"What the fu...Oh ya....I'm just a ghost like thing." I stride back to the bench and lay down as I wait for someone to call an elevator. After a couple minutes by the big clock on the wall adjacent from the bench, a nurse in blue scrubs comes and presses the down arrow. I stand up and walk next to her as we wait for the elevator. Then the loud speaker comes on.

"All those wanting to watch, there will be a special benefit concert being held outside in the courtyard." The loudspeaker shuts off. I think for a second about where that is outside. I then  face palm when it comes to me.

"Isn't that off of the children medical area?" I casually walk into the elevator. It should be easier then taking the stairs. I wish the nurse pressed a white button with a black 'G' on it. But she pressed floor 8. I stare at her with disbelief.

*Couldn't she have taken the ONE flight of stairs?* But I sigh and wait as the metal box proceeds to go down.

<GUMI POV>

I wait outside Neru's room as the rest of my friends did whatever they were doing. I lean back in my chair.

"Neru, Neru, please listen sister, you aren't that famous, but we all really want you back. Haku is all guilty feeling. We haven't even visited Meiko yet, I think someone bailed her out of jail, probably not though." I then laugh for a second. "I feel like an idiot, sitting here and talking to my friend who is in a coma, I'm not even in the same room as her."

"Talking to yourself Gumi?" I notice some of my friends were out here with me. Then I remember that I wasn't the first to talk to Neru. I was close to last, only Len has to talk to her, Haku is currently talking to her.

"Ugh, when will Haku be done?" Len says as he leans against the wall and slides down to the floor.

"Len! Don't be rude! You will have your turn eventually!" Len's twin sister Rin slaps him with the back of her hand.

"Hey! You aren't the boss of me! I'm the older one!" Len sands up and urges Rin to start a verbal agreement with him.

"By like 3 minutes!" They both stop bickering when a door opens and a girl with a long white ponytail and red eyes walks out with a dazed face on.

Haku then looks at the twins and shrugs. She then sits next to Miku. Miku tries to make the most convincing smile on her face, but we all know she doesn't feel that way. Even I'm not making jokes, my heart which normally feels light and full of energy feels heavy, like it's going to fall out. The only semi-happy person was the male nurse who was with making sure we don't do anything stupid or reckless.

After like 10 minutes Len finally walks out, he looks like a train reck. His normally happy looking hair os now sagging, it even looks duller than usual almost a pale blonde and not a vibrant golden. His ponytail is messy and his face looks even worse. He still has tears leaking as he it down next to Rin and Mikuo. I feel bad for the guy. He's been going through a lot in the past 24 hours.

"Okay, before we go and do the concert" Kaito got eight death stares and one I-will-kill-you-if-you-come-near-me-ever-again stare from Len. "Everybody only has to sing one song! And it could be a duet if you want!" he says very hurriedly.

After Kaito finishes talking we all start to think of what song we will sing. I really don't know what song I am going to sing, I have a couple songs that made me cry when I was trying to learn the lyrics. But one really sticks in my mind.

Once we all knew what song we were going to sing we all start to head down to the mini stage the hospital workers put together.

<NERU POV>
The concert is slowly ending only Gumi, Luka, the twins and Miku have yet to preform. Gumi said she would go last because it fit her song. She hasn't even tell anyone what song she is going to sing! Luka is going to go next.

She grabs the microphone from the stand then looks at the band and nods. Long electric keyboard notes start to vibrate through the audience's ears. Luka takes out a daisy she was hiding in her pocket and holds it with her two blue tipped hands.

"Hey!" That daisy was from the flowers Len got me. She starts to sing in English. I face palm, I forgot she could sing it. Hey we can all speak it, but only a couple can sing it. The music doesn't seem at all familiar, it's probably a song someone sent her personally. Luka always learns every song people give her. On the screen behind her is a picture of her crying in the rain under an umbrella. The words 'Reunion' were in the corner. Probably the title. I listen to Luka as she sings her sad song.

"You promised me
You'd never leave
Dropped on my knees
I can not believe this

tell me it's all a joke
my tears began to flow

This empty room
has lost its bloom
I hope that you
will come home soon
how can I say goodbye?
you've already crossed the line

I want to forget everything
I want to remove all the pain
My heart can't take it
Any longer, I'm dying

Inside my heart there's nothing
All of my love has been drained
everything's flowing like the rain
and it hurts me...

My dreams collapsed
my heart was trapped
the rain won't stop
my tears could drop

no one will wipe away
my feelings for you will stay

This empty room
has lost its bloom
I hope that you
will come home soon

how can I say goodbye?
you've already crossed the line

I want to forget everything
I want to remove all the pain
My heart can't take it
Any longer, I'm dying
Inside my heart there's nothing
All of my love has been drained
everything's flowing like the rain
and it hurts me...

never ending rain, never ending pain
my life's bound by a chain
holding my wrist, I'm ending this
I guess no one will miss

a broken glass will cut the line
that keeps you away from me
and finally you'll be here with me
until eternity

these tears pouring down my face
will be the last that I'll shed
this will be the last time
I will now feel your warm embrace

I cannot wait to see you
I cannot wait to hold you
forever you and I will be
together again

Your smile that shines the whole place
colors are starting to fade
all I see is brightness
and I feel like I'm flying

As I close my eyes I remember
the moments that we're together
smiling, I whispered that
'I love you forever'"

As she sings the last line she bows and puts the daisy in her hair, clicks the mic back in the stand and walks off to wear the others are waiting.

I swear to God every single audience member was either tearing up or crying. Even I have a small stream coming from my left eye. It reminds me so much of my current place. I couldn't help but look at Len. He is sitting with his face in his hands. He is obviously crying as well. Rin and Miku are trying to comfort him to no avail. Miku stops as Luka comes over and takes her place. Miku then walks on stage. Kaito then brings over a chair.

"No!" I whisper to myself. I know exactly what song she is going to sing. My eyes started to fill up immediately. She's going to sing Saihate (Farewell Song). I cry everytime she sings it. When I look at the screen I expect the video of her and Kaito walking down the street, but it is Len and I.

Even though she knows that is not how I was put into this mess, the video could still give a gist of what's happening. I look at Len again and he is balling. I feel bad for him, all these sad songs are really getting to him.

(AN So it would be very hard if I described to video AND posted the lyrics, Luka's song only had a picture, but this one as a MMD video. I will only be describing the video, just changing some people so it fits with the story.)

I turn my attention back to the screen. Len and I are walking down the street. The then camera moves to a bus. It drives up and crashes into a car. The car is shot into the air. We notice, we embrace and I turn my back so I am in between him and the falling car. He looks up briefly and sees our reflection in the windshield.

The screen fades to black the comes to focus on Len. He is unscathed thankfully. except for a big gash on the side of his head. He then wakes up and looks for me. He sees me far away. I'm on my back and my right arm has become disconnected along with my right leg from the knee. Len rushes over to me and shakes me. A pool of blood spills out and makes a puddle under me. He then collapses on my back crying.

The scene moves. The Vocaloids, and I mean all of them. Miku, Kaito, Meiko, Rin, Len, Gumi, Luka, Gakupo, Mikuo, Teto, Haku, Yuki, Kiyoteru, Miki, Iroha, Lily, SeeU, Big Al, Sweet Ann, Lola, Leon, Prima, Mayu, IA, Piko and many others I didn't recognize. Everybody is dressed in black and surrounding a black coffin. The camera then focuses on the coffin, I'm in it, my eyes are closed and surrounded by flowers, yellow daisies and roses. Len is sitting in a wheelchair with a white bandage covering the gash on his head. Rin is next to him like a good sister.

Len is then shown in a meadow that looked like the one I was in. He looks around and then sees me. He yells "Neru!" even though the audience can't hear it. The me on the screen turns around and notices him. He runs up to me and we embrace then kiss.

The picture then goes back to the funeral. Rin looks over at her brother who has a dead looking face and black eyes. She then starts shaking him.

The screen goes back to Len and I. We pinkie promise. I then walk through a big white door and Len magically goes back to the funeral. Rin then hugs him when he wakes up. The other Vocaloids were surrounding them in curiosity. It then shows the me in the coffin being buried.

The screen then shows all these pictures of Len living on with his life, singing songs and stuff. At the end the only colors are red and black. The camera closes in on a grave stone on it it says "Neru Akita
Len Kagamine
Rin Kagamine" the song then ends.

Miku stands up from her seat. She puts the microphone in the stand, grabs the chair and walks over. Rin then gives a thumbs up to Miku who just smiles.

Rin goes on stage. She adjusts the mic so it's her size. The band starts playing. The song she is singing is Paper Planes. I had been helping her learn the song for a long time. When she is ready to sing the monitor turns on. It shows the video for Paper Plane, Rin starts singing as soon as the video turns on.

(AN [ ] <- This means English translation)

"Aru jidai aru basho
Mazaranai kono sekai de
Futari no TSUTANAI sekai tsunagu
Hitotsu no kami hikouki"

[One time, at a certain place
Not associated with this world
Two unlucky people connect in the world
With a single paper aeroplane]

"Mainichi byouin wo nukedashi
PAPA no shigotoba de
Kimi ni au no ga watashi no subete de"

[Every day I escape the hospital
At the place where my Papa works
I meet with you; you're everything to me]

"Kimi no tegami wo yomu to kokoro ga
Atatakaku naru
Hoho wo someta  kore ga koi na no ka"

[When I read your letters, my heart
Becomes warm
My cheeks are coloured; is this love?]

"Dakedo
PAPA wa iu
Kowai kao
Ano ko ni wa
Accha DAME?
Watashi ni wa wakaranakatta"

[But
Why does Papa say
With a scary face
That that child
Is no good to see?  
I didn't understand]

"Anata ga iru nara  sore dake de
Ikite iru imi ga aru
Hikari no sasanai kono heya de
Mirai wa kagayaite ita yo"

[If I have you, then that is enough
You give my life meaning
In this room where light doesn't shine
The future was shining]

"Hi ni hi ni fueru kuda no kazu to
Tooku naru mimi
Aruku no mo kanari kitsuku natta ka na"

[Day by day the number of tubes increases
My hearing grows distant
I wonder if even walking has become fairly difficult]

"Mou koko kara ikite derenai nara
Saigo ni anata ni
Shinpai dake wa kaketakunai kara
Hashiru"

[If soon I won't leave this place alive
In the end, I
Don't want to burden you since you'll only worry
I run]

"Sayonara no
Omoi nosete
Kawasareru
Kami hikouki
Namida wa mou miserenai"

[My thoughts of goodbye
I send out to you
On an exchanged
Paper aeroplane
I can't show you my tears anymore]

"Matsu yo. Itsu made mo matteru yo!
Kimi ga kuru sono hi made
Tegami wo daiji ni nakusazu ni itara
Mata aemasu yo ne..." Len joins from backstage. I knew he was supposed to be sad when singing this so he nailed it.

["I'll wait. I'll wait for you forever!
Until that day when you come back
If I don't lose your precious letters that I have
We'll meet again, alright..."]

"Are kara iku tsuki
Mou karada wa ugokanai
Omukae wa mou sugu kuru no ka na
Ano toki no wakare giwa ni
Tsuyogara nakereba yokatta
Mou oso sugita
Ima mo dokoka de warau anata ni...
Aitai  aitai
Aitai"

[It's been many months since then
My body no longer moves
I wonder if you'll come to welcome me very soon
When we were on the brink of separation that time
If I hadn't pretended to be tough, it would've been fine
It's already too late
You who are smiling somewhere even now...
I want to see you, I want to see you
I want to see you]

"Hikari no ataranai hana wa tada
Kareteku no wo matsu sadame
Anata no kureta tegami dake ga
Watashi ni hikari wo kureta n desu
Mou kasunde tegami mo yomenai yo
Heya ni hibiku mukishitsu na oto
Onegai  moshi kore ga saigo nara
Ikasete  anata no moto e..."

[The light doesn't strike the flower that simply
Withers waiting for its destiny
Only the letters you gave  
Are light that is given to me
Your letters are blurry as I can no longer read them
The sound of inorganic matter echoes in the room
Please, if this is the end
Let me go to where you are...]

"Anata ga ita kara  zutto watashitachi wa"
"Kimi ga ita kara  zutto bokutachi wa" Len joins in.
"Egao wo wasurezu ni iraremashita" They sing together
"Fukai yami ga futari wo kirisaite"
"Fukai yami ga mata meguri awasete"

[Because I always had you (Because I always had you)
I could live without forgetting to have a smile on my face )I could live without forgetting to have a smile on my face)
The deep darkness tears the two of us apart and (The deep darkness tears the two of us apart and)
The deep darkness brings us together again (The deep darkness brings us together again)]

"Mata ashita..." They sing together

[Till tomorrow...]

"Ano basho de..." They sing together

[At that place...]

She bows when she is done and walks off. She and the rest of the Vocaloids try to get Len to move.

"C'mon! You helped me sing Paper Plane!!" Rin says pleadingly.

"But I didn't have to be on stage..." Len mutters into his palms.

"Ya, but it's your turn!" Gumi says to him. "If you don't sing, I won't get to!!" Len looks up at her begging face.

"Fine." He says monotonously. I stare at Gumi with jealousy in my eyes.

"Gumi better back off my Len-kun, cause the moment I wake up, she has it coming!!" I mutter as I glare at Gumi for being cute near Len.

Len trudges up onstage. He has a lifeless look on his face. His hair is flattened and his eyes were a murky blue and not the usually bright-as-a-June-sky kind of blue.

He waits for the band to start his choice of song. A sad keyboard and guitar start to resonate through the courtyard. My eyes spring open. It is supposedly the last song in the Story of Evil! Len sang it to me when he was first learning it! My eyes had teared up then cause of the lyrics, but they tear up because of the memories this song has. Len starts to sing Kept Waiting for a Response.

"Chisana koro oya ni sute [Abandoned by my parents when I was little]
Umi no mieru minashigo-in de sodatta [Raised in an orphanage overlooking the sea]
Yashinatte kurete no wa toshioota shudo on'na [was given support by an old man]" He stops singly suddenly, but the band keeps playing.

"This is stupid." He says after the band stopped playing. "I am standing out here singing WHILE MY GIRLFRIEND LAYS IN THERE," he points to the hospital, "DYING!!!!!!" He throws the microphone on the ground then runs back inside the hospital.

"LEN!" I try to run after him, but my legs are weak. I think it's probably of lack of sleep. I walk over to the elevator where Len is waiting. I put my hand on his shoulder. He is very pissed, I can tell because his knuckles are turning white and his eyes are really big.

The door opens and we walk inside. He pushes the floor number I am at. I suddenly feel woozy and decide to sit down. I feel very light headed, like I am about to float away. I try to grab Len's hand but stop when I see I am more translucent than I was earlier. I continue on trying to grab Len's small hand, but my hand goes right through it every time.

I gasp then slowly get up. I am feeling weaker by the minute. Thankfully my room isn't far from the elevators. Len tries to walk into my room, but a very worried doctor stops him.

"Hey! Why can't I see her?" he asks sternly.

"We have to operate on this girl now because her heart rate is dropping severely. We are afraid she might die if we don't figure what is causing it." The doctor explains to Len.

My heart is is dying!? Thankfully the doctor left the door open so I slip into my room. The blankets are off my bed and I'm not wearing anything. There are wires everywhere, in my arms, legs, stomach, chest. I slowly walk to myself. Then I collapse, still conscious. I have no energy to move my body. I've stopped working. My brain has started to shut down even though I'm still breathing, barely though.

"Her heart! We have to operate NOW!!" I hear a bunch of doctors shout.

"IT'S DROPPING BELOW 10 BPM!!!!" Another shouts, his voice cracking. 10 beats per minute...I am dying....I realize for the first time that I might not have control over somethings.

My eyes close right as I hear a long and steadfast beep.