cyber notice

thank god for Crescent,
who has made being a parrot seem
so much simpler than being
human.
thank god for music, and thank
god for bright eyes, thank god for
perfume genius
and honestly? thank god for
gravity;
as a person and as a force
almost as powerful as my will.

thank god for my will.

thank god for rain and though
i'll never understand why but
thank god
for the winter
sun.
thank god for family, selfishly
and i'm ashamed,
thank god for shame and
thank god for fear.
thank god for Go Ask Alice
and thank god for religion reiterating
how fucked i've
always been.

thank god for the people i've met
and kept
and thank god for those who i've
graciously left.
thank god for incense and
thank god for medicine,
for John Green and
books who've built another me
around all the voids i've neglected
and haven't fed for
a
long
long
time.

thank god for the nameless
thank god for words between quotation marks
thank god for conversation and thank god
so very much for
House and the Greys.
thank god for the past
and the insanity it entailed
but mostly,
just thank god for me,
this frail, crippled
physical form
that's withered and
felt oldyounginsanehappydepressedalone
all at once
and somehow still
made it.