A little bit about myself

My name is John Swartz, I am an American all my life. I'm proud of my blood that runs through my veins and as my father use to say when I was a child 'John you're a Swartz, the blood of a near enough American runs through you. If you bleed it's red, white and blue.' I come from a military background with a pretty shitty family on my mother's side due to her terrible, terrible choice in men - except her current partner, he's awesome. I moved to England about 11 years ago the August after 9/11 for multiple reasons ranging from no work to my Mother wanting a fresh start since my Uncle died in the towers. 

I've been in a relationship for just over 6 years and she inspires me a lot with her wonderful, large, bright eyes. You will see a lot of referencing of Ruby-Blackthorn throughout my work, I often write about how I am feeling or little challenges she sets me. She gives me a lot of hope especially when my 13 year old sister died 2 years ago, she died from a heart rejection and that still hurts me today. I found out over Facebook since none of my family called me, I was angry a lot because of that but after hearing about how my father, who is 70, had to make the decision I changed my perspective. I wrote a poem, I still dream about the words that I wrote inside my head when I am lost in my mind. I shall link the poem Here --> Unsure I Stand Alone

I do ramble and I am entirely open about myself, I am very loud even though it's unintentional and a lot of people have a go at me for it. I'm over weight and I know it, I grew up on a poor diet and ever since I was a kid those things still call to me. It's a disorder or some sort of physical problem that will always haunt me though I have somewhat gotten better in the years. I did a Catering course at College and went to University of Southampton Solent to take Journalism in hope to become a Food Journalist but I dropped out due to several reasons but unless you live in England it won't really make sense. 

My Poetry is a lot about imagery, my words are often descriptive and un-rhythmical compared to topical poetry. I tend to use nature, animals and elemental subjects as my tools to describe my meanings. I tend to not really break the normality with my poetry except for Unsure I Stand Alone, it was such an extreme poem for me to write it needed to be different. My favourite poem I wrote is The Wind's Gramophone I am unsure why it's my favourite but it really is just something I fell for. 

Anyway, I suppose that's it about me. If you want to know more or just to read my work go right ahead, I am always open for friends.