Update. I hate asking, but I need some help. :(

Hello everyone. I know it's been a long while since I have been on, and for that I am truly sorry. Things have been very crazy. Well for starters, I finally got married to the love of my life back on November 1st, 2014. I hope to have some pictures up soon. Also, my sister Lunarqua and I have finally gotten our jewelry business up, and are trying to get it off the ground, and we now have our online store up and running. We are posting new things everyday. But that is about where the good news ends. I wish I did have more good news , but unfortunately that is about it. 

So as many of you know I had a spinal fusion on March 10th, 2014. Just over a year ago. I have been out of work since October of 2013. I thought things were starting to get better. Boy, I could not have been more wrong. Now I have been in pain ever since I left work back in 2013, and was feeling ever so slightly better, but around October of last year, right before my wedding, I noticed things were starting to get gradually worse. I am having a harder time standing and walking. Yes, I had a great time at my wedding, however I had to try my hardest to keep my pain to myself. My wonderful bridesmaids and wedding coordinator were a big help. They told me when I was pushing myself and forced me to take it easy and relax. One of my bridesmaids I could not thank enough. That was my younger sister fiirea and my wedding coordinator was my other little sister Lunarqua . These two have been helping me through so much, as have others. So thank you both so much for being able to be there for my big day. However, 2 days after my wedding I ended up in the hospital due to the pain. Not only found out that my back was getting worse, but also that I was Type 2 Diabetic. Yeah...this is just the tip of the massive iceberg I've been dealing with. Well, right now my diabetes is under control, but now a new and even bigger problem has shown up. In late January I was referred to a pain management specialist to try to see why the pain has gotten worse. Turns out that I have Degenerative Nerve Disease, and it is only getting worse. Basically the nerves in my back are crumbling from under me. They want me to have another spinal surgery that is SUPPOSE to be this coming Friday. It's for an implant called a Spinal Cord Stimulater. Lets see if that actually happens since they have changed the date on me like 3 times already. The part that is the hardest however is I can barely walk or get around, and the pain is unbearable. I hardly have any independence anymore. If I do walk, which is not often, it's with a walker, and I am falling constantly. Nothing is touching the pain, and the muscle spasms are just as unbearable as the pain. As if all of that isn't bad enough it only gets worse. I am most likely going to be loosing my job because I have been out from work for so long. A year and a half or so. I was also told by my doctor that if this surgery doesn't work; I will most likely be permanently disabled. That's right...no longer able to go back out into the working world and stuck at home all stinking day. I DON'T WANT THAT!!! I want my freaking life back. I want a life without pain. I want to be able to walk, run, move about, and get out of the house when I want, and not have to rely on someone else to get stuff for me. I want my independence back. I hate being like this. I was an active person that loved my job, had so much planned for my life. Now the rest of my life...yeah...I don't even want to go there or think about it. I think you guys can pretty much figure out what will happen to my life if I become permanently disabled. No lifting over 5 lbs, yada yada yada. Personally I don't want to think about it, but it is the cold harsh reality of things if this surgery doesn't work. However, I have found some peace in making jewelry, and my sister Dani and I have decided to start our own business called Wind Talker Jewelry. We make handmade jewelry, and do custom orders. It really helps me feel more useful...more happy. However, right now it is the jewelry that we sell that is helping me pay for my surgery's and medical expenses. I am normally not the type of person to ask for help; I try to do what I can for myself without asking others. I want to be able to do things on my own, and I am usually the one that is helping everyone else out. However, this time it's the other way around. Now I am the one asking for help. So, I guess what I am asking is if you would like to buy any of our jewelry, please check out our Etsy page. Most of the money will be going towards my medical bills and expenses as well as supplies to make more jewelry. Right now we are only shipping here in the US, but if you live outside the US please message us at wind.talker.jewelry@gmail.com and we will see what we can do about shipping outside the US. If you know anyone that has a birthday, anniversary, wedding, or even holidays; see if there is anything you would like to buy as a gift or even for yourself. We also make custom orders. The jewelry right now is my only source of income right now, and my husband is pushing himself to the limit to try to help me. I feel bad asking for this kind of help, but I don't know what else to do. I am running out of options. Again, I am sorry for asking for this kind of favor and help, but I really need this surgery, and if it works they will be doing a second more permanent surgery. I just want to go back to a normal life out of pain, but that looks less and less likely. Especially without surgery. Please share our Etsy page and Facebook page with friends and family, we may have some pieces they like. I will leave the links below. Again I am so sorry to ask of such a favor, but I don't know what else to do. That and in all honesty, I love making the jewelry, and it has always been my dream to turn it into a business. Again sorry for asking for such a favor. Thank you.

Hope everyone is doing well. Love you all.


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