Nov 30, 2023
I'm back with another edition of 15 under 50! Its been a weird last couple of months personally, filled with both wonderful and uh not so wonderful things. I've been trying my best to get in a better place mentally this year, and some days I feel as though I'm truly making it. I feel like me, productive and filled with joy for the small things but others just oof. I'm really struggling with brain fog, I'm not sure if its a result of having covid in January or simply the amount of anxiety and grief I've dealt with this year. I tend towards the latter because it does seem to lift when I'm doing better. My coping skills have (unfortunately for my bank account) turned back towards collecting and I have a really nice vinyl collection now as well as too many books to fit on my bookshelves, oops! Towards the end of October, there was an incident where I had to call the cops because two young men were at the end of my driveway yelling hateful things and then *coincidentally* like 30 minutes
![[Beatrice] by wdx](https://images-wixmp-ed30a86b8c4ca887773594c2.wixmp.com/f/3ef23225-5d65-4c11-9f2f-586a48d2ef77/dbpkesv-f0300299-9347-4d1d-968b-812375625475.jpg/v1/fill/w_730,h_1095,q_70,strp/_beatrice__by_wdx_dbpkesv-pre.jpg?token=eyJ0eXAiOiJKV1QiLCJhbGciOiJIUzI1NiJ9.eyJzdWIiOiJ1cm46YXBwOjdlMGQxODg5ODIyNjQzNzNhNWYwZDQxNWVhMGQyNmUwIiwiaXNzIjoidXJuOmFwcDo3ZTBkMTg4OTgyMjY0MzczYTVmMGQ0MTVlYTBkMjZlMCIsIm9iaiI6W1t7ImhlaWdodCI6Ijw9MTUzNyIsInBhdGgiOiJcL2ZcLzNlZjIzMjI1LTVkNjUtNGMxMS05ZjJmLTU4NmE0OGQyZWY3N1wvZGJwa2Vzdi1mMDMwMDI5OS05MzQ3LTRkMWQtOTY4Yi04MTIzNzU2MjU0NzUuanBnIiwid2lkdGgiOiI8PTEwMjQifV1dLCJhdWQiOlsidXJuOnNlcnZpY2U6aW1hZ2Uub3BlcmF0aW9ucyJdfQ.TgIy1Y7OG8_HPfw6uegIYJOAT_2HjLOoiE8lVyh9b28 "[Beatrice] by wdx")
