Mar 16, 2022
I hope everyone is well. It's been rough. We all got sick and then I got sick again. It's just been a constant. Lol but thankfully this is being treated with antibiotics and I'm able to do things so I'm all good. Since I've been on break. I've cleaned my house top to bottom, had nothing better to do. Did one of those deep cleans, donations to many places with toys, clothing, etc, things people or children actually need, I got rid of some things that were part of my past that I was told to hang onto. A $350 prom dress that just sat in my closet was donated to a place that will use the money for homeless families, domestic violence, and children in poverty. I'm ok with it it's part of my life I don't like remembering. But at the same time constantly processing, it's a double edged thing... I'll just say this a character is based on this part of my life, and the get killed in narrative, because it's a symbolic burial. The when writing what you know, situations, and emotions you can relate to is I guess what a lot of readers like, but is also a great way to process, even if the situations aren't completely the same. Since then, I finished my covid quilt project, and a few other sewing projects that didn't require me to use certain portion of my hand. I learned to knit a few more stitches, learned a crochet stitch, and have been cleaning and decluttering my Pinterest so I can more efficiently and effectively use it for references, and my writing stuff. I built a whole color palette board but it's set to private currently because it's still a wip. I might open it up for use for others later. I have dozens of projects on my computer that are half finished that we're in progress before my injury. I'm probably going to start working on those sometime this year again. Until then there is some apprehensive feeling in restarting my work due to the state of my neck and my hand and wrist. I still have a long road of recovery and it's possible I have the beginning of carpal tunnel. I'm pissed off about it because I e not done anything so long or too the point of hurting myself on a constant basis. When my hands hurt I took breaks, and usually before that. It I guess just takes once. But doesn't help that I have other underlying issues like scoliosis which throws off body mechanics. Other injuries like my knees and ankles from exercise are being affected by it too not just the c section diastasis recti issues. Covid and constantly being injured has made losing weight a painfully slow process. But I have been getting stronger, and hurting less in some areas. So that's good. I need to work on body mechanics. What I want to do is continue finishing my sketch portraits for all my characters. At the minimum and maybe work on my figure drawing and male anatomy this year. I tried to block out a goals list and were 3 months into the year and derailed. I don't like resolutions for this reason but constant goal setting, and reassessment, because it's more realistic, and from everyone that I follow and read this is a much healthier approach because instead of failing and pity party or death spiraling, you just look at what you have done, and congratulate yourself, and keep going after reassess. It's a seudo fail up mindset, and a way to exercise constant adaption, because nothing in life goes to plan, or rarely does. This approach keeps progress going without, quiting, giving up or stagnating. I hope everyone is doing good. I'll probably try to get a few traditional sketches in to break the ice. Even if my traditional art isn't as good as the digital I still love doing it. And find that is were the majority of my confidence is built.
